absolute_power

well...here's to another day of being in maine! fuck you!

If you need my help...don't ask...cause i'm not gonna give it to you!

this is me...this is how i feel!

I've been thinking a lot lately...and it scares me how things can change over night! but hey...things are meant to be...and you're not meant to be apart of it!

so liz ended it today...i'm feeling quite numb by the pain...i'm going back into hiding...ya know...falling off the face of the earth again...i don't want to feel this pain anymore...everytime...every god damn time! I've just decided that i'm meant to be alone...and ya know what...i can handle sleeping and working for the rest of my life...see with both...at least i'll be doing something to keep my thoughts occupied so i don't have to deal with everyday life. meh!

so here it goes...just another chapter in my dry meaningless life.


poof!

I just fell off the face of the earth!

soooooo...my friends got home ok...they just stopped for some breakfast in manchvegas. but i was still a little pissy...cause i love sittin at someones house doing nothing. well i'm leaving to go back to maine this morning cause i have to work at 4...ewwww...but i think that it's going to be ok cause i'm pretty aggrivated right now...with being here that is.

i slept for 7 hours while liz was at work and that was fun and then i slept allll night woo fucking hoo! yeah...depression is fun shit.

well...back to nothingness for the next 2 hours...peace

so i went to pride yesterday and I must say that i had a really good time. I saw ALOT of my friends there. there was katie, megan, jenn, kat, kirstin, heather, nicole, mandy, and a whole bunch of other peeps that i got to see. I went with liz, april, jamie and sarah! damn didn't we have a good time...hahaha...i guess that we even made it on the news. that's some funny shit right there.

so when we left boston we went back to the hotel to drop off liz, jamie and april and I brought sarah back to haverhill so she could get some stuff to sleep in last night. liz, jamie and april decided to go out to a club last night and i told sarah to go but she didn't want to leave my ass behind so she stayed with me at the hotel but since i hadn't got any sleep in over 24 hours i just passed out.

so i had to drive sarah to work this morning so i left the other girls in saugus to sleep and i drove sarah to salem, NH. yeah...i'm still sittin in bristol all alone. god only knows where the hell they are right now. i must say that i'm starting to get a little worried but there's no way to get a hold of them so i'm just gonna have to wait here. liz and jamie are supposed to work at 4 tonight...whoops...ah well...

but off to do nothing for the night...

peace